When you read the title, think "Peanuts," as in Lucy and Charlie Brown. That's kinda how I feel: "Good grief!"
I was up at 5 today so my jangling nerves will (I hope) let me rest tonight, because tomorrow is...*dun dun dun* TEST DAY.
I know that I cannot possibly know everything. I know that everyone says not to study the day before. But they also say to make sure you listen to yourself and do things that will help ease your anxiety and frankly, not studying the day before an important test would make me bonkers. I'm definitely not going to put in a full 8 hours at the library or anything nutty, but I do not have the cojones to ignore the books all together today.
That said, I am definitely over-caffeinated at this point and can barely stop jittering long enough to type this, much less to read a pharmacology book. So I'm off to go do...something. Think good thoughts for me!
Thursday, June 12, 2008
Tuesday, June 10, 2008
Wherein I count down to the test
On Friday, I am going to be 24 years old. I know, I'm a fetus. I don't feel particularly young, but I suppose I don't really know what it is like to be older, either.
Ah, Friday the 13th. I "rebelliously" (I know, I live on the edge) embraced the number 13 as a kid because it is my birth date, after all. Even better was my "golden birthday," when you turn the same age your birth date. On what day of the week do you think my 13 fell? That's right, Friday--I turned 13 on Friday the 13th. Oooh, spooky!
Anyway, my birthday (Friday the 13th this year, again) is not really the issue at hand. Because I am essentially a masochist (all medical students are--we turn to sadism later), I scheduled my step exam for that day. So it's T-minus 3 days and counting. I'm afraid. And I want to get it over with. And I want to be able to study more, although not really. What I really want is to go on vacation.
PS I've stopped hiding and I'm just telling people (if it comes up) that I'm retaking the boards. It actually is quite liberating.
Ah, Friday the 13th. I "rebelliously" (I know, I live on the edge) embraced the number 13 as a kid because it is my birth date, after all. Even better was my "golden birthday," when you turn the same age your birth date. On what day of the week do you think my 13 fell? That's right, Friday--I turned 13 on Friday the 13th. Oooh, spooky!
Anyway, my birthday (Friday the 13th this year, again) is not really the issue at hand. Because I am essentially a masochist (all medical students are--we turn to sadism later), I scheduled my step exam for that day. So it's T-minus 3 days and counting. I'm afraid. And I want to get it over with. And I want to be able to study more, although not really. What I really want is to go on vacation.
PS I've stopped hiding and I'm just telling people (if it comes up) that I'm retaking the boards. It actually is quite liberating.
Saturday, June 7, 2008
We are all crazy, it's true
It is a beautiful Saturday afternoon here. There's not a cloud in sight; the birds are chirping, a gentle breeze is blowing in from the south. Sane people are spending this gorgeous gift of a day out in their gardens, playing with their kids/dogs/significant others in the park, and riding their bikes on the many mountain trails just outside of town.
And me? I'm in the library. There's a great big bank of windows just to my right out which I can admire the profile of the mountains to the east and imagine what that breeze that ruffles the leaves out there must feel like. I've been at the library every day for the past 6 and I'll be here every day until test day, but the thing that gets me is that I'm not the only one! Yes, indeed, the library is actually more populated with people from my medical school class today then it has been since Monday. I always knew that med students were a special brand of crazy, but seriously, this is a new level of proof.
And me? I'm in the library. There's a great big bank of windows just to my right out which I can admire the profile of the mountains to the east and imagine what that breeze that ruffles the leaves out there must feel like. I've been at the library every day for the past 6 and I'll be here every day until test day, but the thing that gets me is that I'm not the only one! Yes, indeed, the library is actually more populated with people from my medical school class today then it has been since Monday. I always knew that med students were a special brand of crazy, but seriously, this is a new level of proof.
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